How Learning To Live Freely Saved My Life.

Goodmorning lovies! Or should I say, "goodnight". 

It's 3:30am in Lafayette, and I'm up pondering my own thoughts as I do every night before bed. As I reflect on my day, I was moved to begin writing up on how living as a "free spirit" has changed the way that I think, act & love; and more importantly saved me as a whole. I thought that many of you would relate to me, and being that this is my blog & an outlet to share myself with my readers, I figure why not preach a lil one-two? 

What is a "free spirit?" Urban dictionary will tell you it is one who "goes with the flow." Google will tell you it is "an independent or uninhibited person." Neither are 100% false, but being free is so much more than just that alone.

As I have stated in past blog posts, I grew up a young girl who had ALL of the friends. Everybody loved Dom. Everybody wanted to be Dom's friend. I was "that chickkkkkk okurrrt" and all of my friends and I were extremely close. I say this to emphasize that I had never really had an enemy before. My friends were my friends, I wasn't out looking for anything more or less. I had never known what it was like to have "beef" or to feel like someone does not like something about you and it effect me personally. I was naive, and it took for me to have my first real fall out to realize how unready for opposition I was at the time. I couldn't take it. The thought of ANYONE not liking me or not wanting to be my friend was unheard of. "What did I do to you?" "Why do you have a problem with me?" "Everybody likes me??!?!" I wanted answers and hadn't realized yet that that's the way of life sometimes. You won't always have an answer. 

After a while of coming to terms with the inevitable fact that NOT EVERYONE ON EARTH WILL LOVE YOU, I decided I was going to let go of my frustration and be free. It was a very snap decision that I made, and I am so, so glad that I made it. I began to live again. I began to laugh and have fun and do everything I would normally do, without having to wonder constantly if my actions are affecting the way someone likes or dislikes me as a person. Granted, I am sure to always try to be a positive influence because nobody wants enemies or wants to hurt others (unless of course you're a deranged psychopath)...but sometimes you just cannot fight the hate..& that is not your burden to carry. 

Being a free spirit saved me. Wanting the love of EVERYONE was a huge boulder on my back for a long time. One that may have ended up crushing me beneath it, when I have found that I am way too independent and wayyyyyy too much of an influencer to fall defeated by such an insignificant burden. Would I be as inspirational if I would have let that tribulation of living to please others crush me? Would I have been so closed minded and tight circled had I ventured out and been more free during my youth? Would I even have discovered my passion for influencing others had I not made this change? WOULD I EVEN BE A BLOGGER????? Being free is about loving yourself enough to let go. LET GO of that friend that isn't encouraging you because they are hating on you themselves. LET GO of that man or woman that is hindering you from where you know you should be in your life. LET GO of your past. LET GO of your enemies..they will not help you to be the greatest version of YOURSELF! LET GO of your problems and give them to God. LET GO of your fears and face them with strength and courage. LET GO of those voices in your head telling you that you can't achieve whatever your heart desires to conquer. L e t  I t  G o. 

Be free. 

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